I would like to take a moment to speak to someone who has a father wound.
Someone whose father failed to fulfill his role.
Here is part of her comment.
"BUT I am struggling to forgive my dad for letting a lot of evil happen
to me... It is hard because I want to hear him say I am sorry for all
the times that he knowingly let evil have me, for all the times he just
knew something wasn't right but did nothing to stop it."
As a Father this hurts as it is so close to the heart.
I hear the pain of an innocent child left alone to defend herself.
and worse, I see the pain I have caused my daughter.
I was so busy trying to survive life that I ignored my daughters needs. I was so full of wrong teaching that I believed that I was right to live the way I was. I was consumed by work, other peoples problems, and caring for a wounded wife that my daughter became an unintentional casualty in my life.
While I have told her I was sorry, it doesn't seem to help. I can't make up for the pain I have caused and I have no words to defend it.
My only hope is that the course I sent her on leads her to a father who is far greater than I. My prayer for her is that she would find in God what she could not find in me.
A Father who lovingly guides.
A Father who carefully corrects.
A Father who passionately protects.
A Father who famously forgives.
While I do not know what evil your father let have you, I know that as a father if I could I would never let it happen again, but once you've failed as a father its hard to live with the facts and even harder to move forward.
It might be that your forgiveness might just be the hope He needs to find his forgiveness and become the father he always wanted to be.
If I could......