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Wednesday, October 3, 2012

This Stinks

For four years I prayed to God..............
Give me a Revelation, Show me what to do
I've been trying find my way, haven't got a clue
Tell me should I stay here, or do I need to move
Give me a revelation, I've got nothin without You, I've got nothin without you
(Thanks Third Day)

and since my trip in June, God has been opening my eyes to His plan for my life.
I am so certain of so many things I doubted before.
And then this week happened.

I have gone from God's quiet leading in my heart, showing me love and comfort that created change.
To God Screaming in my ear to Go Big or Go Home and even as recent as this morning rebuking me for slowing down and waiting for other things to happen.

Adding insult to injury, I Read in a Blog Post this morning by Perry Noble

#1 – Is there ANYTHING that God is really dealing with me about right now that I am trying to deny? (Denial doesn’t make us a great leader…if God’s pressing in on YOU then He wants YOU to do something.)

YES, but I don't want to.

Is that denial? No its worse, its rebellion.

Its uncomfortable (to Me)
Its unprofitable (to Me)
Its unmanageable (for Me)

Trust me, its about me and I know it.

So here goes my conversation
Why can't God just do it? ...........Because He has called me to do it.
Why can't God just make it easy? .........He has, I can trust Him.
Why do you have to do this to me? ............Because He loves me and wants to show me how great that love is through this situation.

I am not denying it, but I am struggling with it.
Pray for me.
Not for courage, Not for strength, nor for understanding.
Pray that I would humble myself and please Him and not me or even you

And by the way, what are you saying no to?


  1. Pastor, this makes me smile :)... I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that something BIG is coming and this is all part of that.. I pray Proverbs 3:5 for you... HE WILL direct your path! I'm also beginning to think that as DJ needs to spend time in her worship songs, you need to spend time on that bike! amazing revelations come when you are on it! (Don't need to post this.... just wanted to let you know we are praying!)

  2. I can feel that anticipation each time I am within this church. I can feel the excitement, the love, the growth. I am thrilled to be a part of it, in whatever way God leads me. I have seen the change since your motorcycle trip in June - not just rejuvenation but something MORE. I can't wait to see what BIG will be!

    I have been saying NO to quitting smoking. What am I afraid of? I pray constantly about it, but still reach for that pack of cigarettes.

    I had been saying no to God's guidance of my relationship with my daughter in law. It brought me continual heartache and pain. I am doing better allowing Him to guide this relationship. I still get flares of anger and frustration because it is not going MY way, but when they appear, I turn it over to Jesus. It is too big for my hands.